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invisible_ai) wrote2008-05-22 11:46 pm
invisible_ai) wrote2008-05-22 11:46 pm
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007. Safety Zone [Voice Post]
*The sound of the rain can be heard in the background, as if it were tapping on the outside of an old window. There is also the occassional menacing growl and banging noises that can be heard, but they sound far away.*
... *sighs* If it were possible to be anywhere else, then I never would have wanted to come to a place like this. Still... I do not regret what I have done, even if I am worried about the noises that I am hearing from outside that door.
I have completed the surgery and removed the chip from Sai's neck. He is resting peacefully at the moment. Although his temperature has risen, and so I don't think that it will be easy for him to recover for awhile. Not to mention that I had to make do with the tools and materials that were available here, which required a lot of time and sterilization. It's just as they say, no one has ever dared to come here in quite awhile... to this hospital. Still, a few of the tools were in decent condition, even if the others that I found were rusted and in disrepair. I am glad that I did not need to use them for this procedure.
I am using one of the blankets that I recovered before heading to the hospital to cover him up, although it is still dirty and damp around the edges; so is the other one I took for that matter, but I am hanging it out to dry. I will give it to him once it is ready.
*She is quiet for a few minutes.* We were lucky enough to get here before that storm hit a few days ago. A few of the old window panes are broken, and I could hear the clatter of the falling hail stones from down here. I... do not know what these next few days will bring, but I am prepared to stay here until the wound on Sai's neck heals from his regenerating abilities.
... *sighs* If it were possible to be anywhere else, then I never would have wanted to come to a place like this. Still... I do not regret what I have done, even if I am worried about the noises that I am hearing from outside that door.
I have completed the surgery and removed the chip from Sai's neck. He is resting peacefully at the moment. Although his temperature has risen, and so I don't think that it will be easy for him to recover for awhile. Not to mention that I had to make do with the tools and materials that were available here, which required a lot of time and sterilization. It's just as they say, no one has ever dared to come here in quite awhile... to this hospital. Still, a few of the tools were in decent condition, even if the others that I found were rusted and in disrepair. I am glad that I did not need to use them for this procedure.
I am using one of the blankets that I recovered before heading to the hospital to cover him up, although it is still dirty and damp around the edges; so is the other one I took for that matter, but I am hanging it out to dry. I will give it to him once it is ready.
*She is quiet for a few minutes.* We were lucky enough to get here before that storm hit a few days ago. A few of the old window panes are broken, and I could hear the clatter of the falling hail stones from down here. I... do not know what these next few days will bring, but I am prepared to stay here until the wound on Sai's neck heals from his regenerating abilities.
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[Private to Chopin] [1/2]
As for your question, I do not know...
He and I are alone at the hospital after being escorted here. It was Sai's request that I perform the surgery to remove the chip from his neck, since he still feels very distrusting towards those who had felt it would be too dangerous to take him to see a proper doctor to get it removed. It was a very risky procedure, and I was a little hesitant to perform it myself without any painkillers to speak of. Now his neck has been bandaged and his is sleeping.
He has a fever right now, but I've put a damp cloth on his head and am looking after him the best that I can under the circumstances. I have heard that some individuals behave erratically as their powers go out of control post-surgery, and so I do not know how Sai will be effected...
[Private to Chopin] [2/2]
It is very dangerous here. There is no question about it. Not just the undead prowling through the hallways, but perhaps even... ... I shall say no more for now. But please, do not do anything reckless. I would not wish to see you get hurt on our account.
[ooc Long comments for long explanations! Sorry about that. ^^; Awww... But that's why we love you, Chopin. ♥]
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[Private to Chopin]
Frederic... What you have heard from Sai is true. It is a terrible condition of his abilities, and at times inevitable. In the most extreme cases, he experiences incredible pain and begs that his memories not be lost. He worries that he may lose something important that way...
I cannot stop it, and it was Sai's decision to have his chip removed so that he could use his abilities to learn more about himself again. To you and I, he is just Sai. A thoughtful boy and a good friend and companion. But for him, he doesn't know anything about himself. He doesn't remember his family, how he came to being, or if he is even really human. Nothing.
I... have given Sai my life to do with as he wishes. Until the day he is able to understand who he really is, I will always be by his side. As for you, Frederic, it sounds as if you have made your own choice. Please do what you must, but try to be careful. I beg of you.
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You will always stay in my heart, Ai. Both and Sai, I never want to forget either of you. You both deserve happiness in your lives, and I will grant that. Even if...Even if I have to give up my own freedom for it. As long as you both can remain who you are, I will give up everything to see that comes true. Especially for you Ai, I can not stand to see you suffer and just watch as Sai is slowly losing his own precious memories.
[Private to Chopin] [1/2]
[Private to Chopin] [2/2]
I understand why you would feel that your cause is just... so much that it hurts. But how can you feel so determined to try to recover something that may not even exist in this world or even our own? If you start on this path, your trials may never cease. In our world, we were both considered to be criminals. In Discedo, I am an unknown if not a person, and Sai has become a dangerous element and distrusting toward those who would not help him in my absence.
Do not abandon yourself so easily. My old self is dead and buried, one who has taken many lives in the name of revolution... I would never ask you to make such a sacrifice so willingly.
[Private to Ai]
[Private to Chopin]
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Frederic... To be honest, I am not really sure what to say. I never imagined that you cared about me so deeply, and I find that very flattering. ...I... cannot say that it makes me truly happy that you understand that I am unable to return your feelings-no caring person would be able to walk away from that truth feeling wholly satisfied-, but I am still relieved nonetheless. For that I thank you, as I have placed a deep sense of trust and friendship in you, and I am glad that those feelings have not been in vain.
Also, if you feel that you should apologize for feeling affection towards me, then so do I for burdening you with this heart ache.
[Private to Ai]
I see. I am use to this, women rejecting my feelings than to return them. So I have grown immune to the affects of heartache, it does not bother me anymore. I hold back the tears and just move on. You haven't burdened me at all, for it was foolish of me to even consider having affection towards you even when I knew Sai meant the world to you. I feel as if I was a nuisance to you in that aspect, forgive me Ai.
[Private to Chopin]
I'm so sorry.No, I shall not ask any more of you. It would not be right. Still, I wish there was more that I could do, and I do not would wish for you to believe that your feelings are foolish. They are yours and as real as your heart, and you would be doing yourself a great injustice to ever think otherwise. Just as I would be doing myself a great injustice if I was not honest with you, and chose to go against my own feelings.
You were never a nuisance to me, Frederic. There is nothing that you have done that you need be forgiven for.
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